Hey there you you....

sometimes i ask how do i know someone? do i know you? on a scale of 1 to 10 how much do i know you, or do you know me? and can what we know of each other be tagged as knowing?

puzzling, i asked God the same question. after all this year, through all the hypocrisy and inconsistency with devotional life i asked God, do i know you? or do you know me? ridiculous, but i just felt like a child lost in an abyss of with high rised buildings, post modern thinking and the ever stale mate of religion.

its like for once i could have just bought the idea that God actually is helping me stop time. i am decreasing to a point of retardation, and its all making sense.

I read 1 John 2:3: "We know that we have come to know him if we obey his commands."

it was pretty simple. actually it is. but whats simple is complicated. its not that easy to follow a simple command of say loving your enemies. its straightforward, its practical and its philosophical. but its not applicable? yes, no? both answers prove complex.

trascending from this phase of life, hopefully i will make it. There is a God for sure, and I bet he understands us the more. I hope I understand him through his commands, obeying them the very least.

But I also hope to understand my identity as a human being obeying God's commands, in an eternal quest for perfection.

-vadai-